dear current and future readers: i want to clarify a couple of things. about me. my outlook. i am a grateful person. i believe in the inherent good that i think really, really exists within all people. ok, so i have been down lately. been sad. been depressed. this blog started as the logical progression for me to work out some stuff, form my own creative outlet, write as an artistic expression and explore things, try to answer some big-ass questions. but make no mistake: as shitty as i feel sometimes about life and love and money and the seemingly unanswerable question, “What Does This All Mean”, etc., i am blessed. i’m kinda big into spirituality. some people probably don’t know this about me. i converted to Catholicism when i was 16. it was a big deal. i studied relentlessly. took classes. read a lot. took two years of classes at the UJ in california. studied lots ‘n lots of the kabbalah. other things, too. the thing is, i am still on that search. for me religion is a touchy subject. i grew up in the bible belt and deep deep south. kkk and shit down there. serious hate. gross. i may not crave religion, but i crave meaningful spirituality. i have started on a new path toward my spiritual endeavor. a path well-suited to me now. the glove that fits. i feel good about it. closer. you know, to some thing that is greater than me. anyway, i strive to be nice to everyone i meet, to be an honest person, to do well at my job, to be kind. all that stuff. my blog may be about questions and longings and the stuff melancholia is made, but i am trudging the road of happy destiny and that is really the point. and i just wanted to mention it.
the blue refrigerator pyrex container was my sweet thrift-store find yesterday. a little thing? yes. a materialistic item? yes. but it is the little things that count, you know. every single little one of them.
© littlebrownbutterfly
Well If you want to sing out
Sing out.
And if you want to be free
Be free.
‘Cause there’s a million things to be.
You know that there are.
i love that blue pyrex thingy and today would have been a good day for me to have found a find that made me that little bit happy.
I’ve been pushing my work out lately, my novel and three of my screenplays — pushing it out there, telling people that I believe it has value and that they should pay attention. And it leaves me feeling really vulnerable and thinking about taking a dive off the side of a building. So I feel you, by fluffy fluffy bird. Your blog makes me smile.
The journey is good Lisa. At least you don’t get hate comments like I do!!
poignant. I can relate.